The things you are struggling with, conquering, dealing with in your life are not for you. Have you ever thought that maybe you need to go through whatever it is you’ve been going through so that you can save others who may be battling with the same issues? Life and its meaning is so much bigger than just you. You taking back control of your life after drug use is so that you can teach another person how to do the same. Your struggle as a single mom is for inspiring other single parents to keep going. Your 3-job hustle to make ends meet is so that your son will do greater and bigger things in his life. Everything has a purpose, has a function. Your pain is not in vain.
Try, instead of asking God why me, ask him what? What is it you need to learn in this situation, what is it you need to share during this tough time. The struggle develops you and in turn can change someone else. It dawned on me earlier this year that not only am I to be provider and comforter for my baby, but my duty to her is to break the previous dead end cycles. Every generation should elevate a little more each time. My adolescent years had to play out the way they did so that I can do the right thing now for my daughter. It’s not for nothing and it certainly isn’t all about you girl. That’s the beautiful thing though, using your experience to help or heal another person and through that healing yourself. Amen!
I want to leave you with this reminder so that next time you find yourself wrestling with the why’s of your life, you can switch gears and focus your attention on the Spiritual what’s:
What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own son, but GAVE him up for us all – how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Romans 8:31-32